A sentence has come into my head with great regularity of late when I've been thinking about this class: "The learning is distant."

It's a rather obvious pun, I'll grant, but one which has a lot of relevance for me.

As I've continued my experience with this class, I find myself juggling perspectives and impressions. For instance: Howard asks me how I think class went. I think first in terms of my own work. Did all the articles look all right? Were there any lingering permissions problems? Then I broaden my perspective to encompass other technical difficulties or the lack of them: Was the video connection working? How was the echo?

After all this, I begin to consider the things we were actually talking about. I think about who was talking, and for how long. Who was cut off?

Then perhaps after I've finished talking with Howard, I'm walking out with one of my friends, who says,
"Didn't you think X was annoying? X went on and on and on, and made no worthwhile points whatsoever." And I think about it, and sometimes I agree, and sometimes I don't.

My experience of the class is fragmented. When I try to think about it, I don't know which role to put myself in to think about it most effectively. Do I assume the research assistant's scientific interest in an experiment? The student's affection or disaffection for particular issues and people in the course? The critical theorist's recognition and questioning of fundamental assumptions about pedagogy and authority? Sometimes I'm most tempted to reach back into my past and take up the bottom-line "did it work?" perspective of the theater technician.

And when I try to think about what I've learned, and how the technology has "impacted" it, as it were, I find it even more difficult to draw any conclusions. I know I've learned a lot this semester, but it's very hard to pinpoint either how or when any particular "piece" of learning has taken place. So I won't even make the attempt.

And there are things I'd like to say that I don't feel right about saying in this context. I'm self-censoring. I don't like that. But there it is. There are some things that it doesn't make sense to broadcast. You might argue that this isn't really broadcasting, that it's by definition narrowcasting, but you never know who might find what how.